F.M-i sünnipäev

“It is said that when a conductor raises her hand, this gesture called the upbeat should already contain the whole piece — its tempo, dynamics, mood, everything — so the musicians can get a glimpse of the piece as a whole. They should get the hint of the direction in the pause right before the music starts. This upbeat reminds me of the technique. I need to raise my hand in order to drop it, I need to inhale to exhale, I need to stop to sense movement. But I am no musician, just an acting student, so I should probably stick to what I know. Stanislavski has a term “the given circumstances”. In order to play a character I have to know all the circumstances she is in. The better I know who she is, why she is like that, where she is, where does she go, where does she come from, the better I can live her life. But I think this applies to real life also — the better I know my given circumstances, the better I can live my life and I think the technique is one of the best ways to get to know my given circumstances. During my practice I have discovered many circumstances and met quite a clumsy and a bad version of myself, but I believe that the moment I witness the bad version of myself I also witness the possibility of the best one.”